How many times a day can you say your breath is taken away?
How many times can you say your heart beats quicker?
How many times can your phones message tone bring you utter joy and completion?
Sitting in the shadows of the day outside I feel a sense of joy and wonderment at the life I lead. I adore every aspect of my life. My favourite person and lover,my family, my job, my few close friends, my extended friends, my ability to look on the bright side, and my ability to love. I make mistakes just like everyone, and apologize when I'm wrong. I count on myself to say what I think, sure it gets me into trouble, but it is part of me. I occasionally get scalded for the things I say, but at least I know people still listen. I don't like people hiding behind who they are to impress people. Be yourself, whoever you are. I am a werido, an addicted lover to my Maximillian, fashion enthusiast, a retail salesperson who basks in the happiness she brings to people in the smallest garment, a loud mouth ( I know it seems far down the list), a rude little girl, an attempted to be kind person, loyal-to-an-extent of my attention, very easily distracted, disliker of my own hair cut, non-sleeper-in-er, jewelry lover, clothes horse, competitive in strange ways, cook and cleaner for only one person ( not me ), and dream girl to one boy.
It's hard to imagine all of those things probably only describe my pinkie toe in the extent of myself, but I tried.
I want to be able to wear my grey jersey harem pants with heels and a leather. But to where exactly would that suit?I want a dress like this for my birthday. But I've already got it planned, as I'm poor. Wish my hair looked this nice. Thinking of getting my old extensions put back in for a few weeks of lovely thick hair, as I'll also put my clip-in extensions in too. SUPER HAIR!
SO over getting everything wrong. I'm over-reacting MAJORLY but I'm getting frustrated at how some people never take hints. How they say they're not going to do ANYTHING anymore, but then low and behold it's a thursday night so they gotta do it. And people who don't get the HINT that nobody wants them there anymore. Even vultures need space, every human needs space, no matter what they say. And even if the space isn't from their partner, it may be from their family. People move things too fast these days. And no one is independent anymore. GROW UP you're NOT a member of the family.
Now today is exciting for me, coz it's one week till my BIRTHDAY!! And last night I booked a lovely weekend away for me and Max at the cottage up top! How cute is it!!! Self contained B and B in the Blue Mountains. I only just realised I have no idea if we have to cook for oursleves or if it's included. Ha ha awkward. I also know I'm getting a new camera for my birthday, don't know which one out of 2 as Mum and Dad are getting it for me so they'll decide. BUT it does mean that I'll FINALLY have a flipping camera again! yippee..
Has anyone else got exciting news??
Oh and I have just over 50 hours of driving till I can go for my P'S!!! yippee again!!
Never before have I seen such beauty in crystals, since the Dark Crystal itself. This was Romance was borns 10' show and once again they delivered, and shot it out of the sky. I love everything about everything Anna Plunkett and Luke Sales touch. And my lucky friend Anneka got to dress Paul Mac as their pianist for the show, lucky bitch.
My sister has comic book boots somewhere at home which are amazing, but they're heaps pointed and are a size or two too big so it's a bit of a neck breaker decision to wear them.
It's Milli's birthday tonight and we're going all out. Drinks and parties to celebrate this evening. She is definitely one of the most amazing and stunning women you will ever meet, with a heart of gold. She deserves the best in life and nothing short of a spectacular day all about her. She also is the luckiest girl alive as she gets to go to PARIS on monday for 3 weeks to visit the fashion capital of the world. I bet she won't be able to move a metre down the road before being stopped and proposed to by wonderful rich french men. But as I said she has a heart of gold, so she'll let them down gently.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILLI!!
You deserve it.
and don't forget, Haters only hate the people they can't have or can't be.
I wouldn't go running round calling myself the biggest fan of Skins, as I know there are hardcore fans out their that deserve such a title more than me, hell I haven't even seen the whole new season yet. But I do highly enjoy every second of it. It's a tv show you'd never expect with emotions you know all too well but would prefer to squash. I never got into the first and second seasons but as soon as I got the third I watched it back to back over about 3 days. And I remember ages ago reading an article that said that Effie was the only main cast member who had done work before, the rest of the cast came from open auditions advertised in the paper, as they wanted REAL kids this time. And boy did it work out for them.
This shot of Effie always gives me goose bumps. She isn't holding anything back, she cries like every girl has cried when it feels like it's all over and you need to give up.
Went out last night and had possibly the BEST night with the BEST people in MONTHS!!
Last week Max sat me down and made me realize a couple of things. Not only had I shut down most of my friends and clunge to him and him alone on nights out, I had killed all my independence that I prided myself on having in my life and relationship. I gave up on some people as I didn't want to bother trying to be their friend. But nothing thats worthy is not worth trying for, otherwise it would be easy and boring. Friends are there for you when you need them, but they are not mind readers. Just because you're angry at them, doesn't mean they realize this. Everyone needs space. Everyone needs a friend. Everyone needs love. And they do all combine, every day. Friends are friends because you choose each other, based on your interests, your style, your admiration for the other, the list goes on. Either your mutual friends introduce you, you meet through work, or on the street or at an event at Cabana bar randomly, or when you turn up to their house after Parklife. Everyone needs to put some effort in, I sure did, and I am reaping the benefits. In this quest to patch up friendships I have also come to the realization that, I was a MASSIVE bitch, not just too strangers regarding their outfit, but to my friends in general. I never had anything good to say to them, and I was always snapping at people. So I did the only thing I could do. I pulled my head OUT of my bum. I apologized. I am working on my attitude, and it's working. Not the attitude that I'm awesome, because I know I am. But the attitude that everyone is special to me. And I should treat them that way. Otherwise I'll just be following Max around every weekend hating life. Instead of hanging out with my daughter Chelsea (Not ACTAUL daughter, but best friend) and seeing people I haven't and doing things I haven't. And staying up all night with Anneka, Bianka, Max, Benny and Parhas. What fun a night we had indeed.
What I am saying is. I admitted I was wrong. I now put in the effort. And if you need to put in effort, a lot of the time it's worth it. Can't have sex without forplay can you??